Monday, February 6, 2012

Prologue



This space has fallen quiet and it's not for lack of want, but lack of words. It's been in waiting for the right things to say and being able to hold a space for the responses that come.

The last month has been one of trial and big heavy decisions, of climate changes both physical and emotional, a letting go of so very much.

This weekend we settled our little gypsy circus into a house. We parked our home on wheels in a solemn lot as tears spilled down my face. Our Grand Adventure has taken a turn and will now continue from a cozy house in the mid-west, rather than our gypsy wagon.

I am sad. I won't deny this and I don't have a space for you to tell me all the positives. The last two years for me personally have seen the largest growth and the deepest finding of who I am and what I know to be true.

This was the best move for us, right now. I see that and know it in my core, but it doesn't make the transition any less. I am forever changed by this journey. I will never be the same girl that I was when we drove 2000 miles across the country with empty pockets and only tiny trinkets. The road is forever a part of me now.

And more than anything, I am full of gratitude. For the miles, the lessons, the stirrings, for the tiny pieces of each place that I carry in my soul and for every person I met along the way. Namaste.

{I started out calling this post Epilogue but I'm still convinced this isn't where the story ends, it's where a new one begins}

7 comments:

  1. My dear far away sister, what else but I can undestand you so well. We've been on the road in the last year, we stopped few times for weeks, but knowing we would have been going again. Then last september we settled in a house in a different country ( we're italian, we stopped in Finland).I feel the same, changed forever, never looks the same. I'm with you.
    Flavia

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  2. I am hoping to have some similar discoveries of my own as we head out on the road here soon! You are my inspiration! Thank you!

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  3. I'm sad too! :( Hope our paths still cross one day.

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  4. Big changes! Exciting changes! Hang in there mama...the transition is always hard. Love you. xxoo

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  5. No words. Only tears for the aching of your heart.

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  6. i feel this for you. i wish it was easier on you. there's growth in staying still sometimes too, i think. mostly a new kind of growth ... but growth still. trees are the epitome of stillness. find a tree and ask how it's enjoying it's adventure up. there's plenty of trees around here. and maybe we'll drive a little and meet in the middle somewheres this spring?? (please!?!?!?)

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  7. Im just seeing yor update. Sending you big love, mama. May life be good to you in your new home. Xoxo

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